Today is the 8th Oct 2007 . I've been blogging so much, i know . It always turn out this way, study - always blog, work - never blog . But whatever the case is, i just saw this poem with reminds me of how it was like before i said it to him . . . well, here goes :

Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.
Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

He did notice me, he did and sometimes he don't, but only for this short while and i'm back to step one again . I saw the poem, i saved it, i post it up and i delete it . For the blogging purpose i told myself, for me to wake up, i guess . And yes, i'm waking up myself, though it sounds ridiculous but i'm always telling myself, it's no use, there's no point, he's just not the one for you . Agree, fate exist, but the feeling is not there, it's not there ! So what for do those things to waste time and youth ? To me, love and friendship is similar, as long as you're true to your friend, it's like investing feelings for your love . Once bitten, twice shy . When a true friend betrays, it really hurts and the next time you know a person, it's no longer a friend, he's just someone you know with no friendship, you get what i mean ? And this goes on so long till the day you open up and face the world once again . I'm still in the midst of hurting, i'm still trapped in my world of 'no true friend exist', that's why i rather be alone than to be with people . For every cause has a reason behind it .

Homework now . Till then . . .